Waves of Shame

waves of shame

There are moments when the past is unknowingly unleashed back into the present. Parts of you that you filed away. Pieces of your past that you were hoping had gone away and did not exist. They come crashing down around you, out of nowhere, like waves of shame. This past weekend for Mother’s Day was one of those moments. My …

Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes

Change your mindset, to change your culture, that changes your life! Doing what you have always done, gets you what you have always got! Life is a series of cycles! It is easy to do what you know and most people don’t like change. Fear and the idea of being uncomfortable keeps us there and many times leaves us feeling stuck. So, nothing …

Tired of feeling stuck. Just Move!

It is true we reap what we sow. In 2 Corinthians 9:6 it says, “whoever sows sparingly will reap sparingly, and whoever sows bountifully will reap bountifully”. But what do we sow, where is our seed? Our life is our story and our natural gifts are the tools we have been given to share that story.  But if you are …

Cancer – A Mess Into A Message

Out of nowhere a diagnosis of cancer. Through my almost 4 years of sobriety I have learned many lessons. I have experienced ups and downs, the good and the bad, the beautiful and the ugly. It afforded me the opportunity to embrace my faith and let God begin a great work in me and through me. As I have walked …

Living As If My Dad Was Dead

We cannot forget the casualties of  trauma. With all the accomplishments and celebrations in my sobriety, I can easily lose sight of the ones too often forgotten in my recovery. They are the ones that I have left in the wake of my alcoholism. They are my family, my loved ones, and my children that have suffered from the torment …

Dreams of a Future – What Keeps Getting in the Way

The closer I get the further away it seems. There is nothing in this world that I want to accomplish more than my goals and to fulfill my purpose. The dreams that I have envisioned in my head all coming together to make an impact in this world. It seems that the closer I see them as a reality the …

Don’t Doubt Your Dream

Doubt may be the greatest dasher of all dreams. Everyone at some point in their life has had a dream. Ambitions of what they might become and the mark they might leave on this world. Even us addicts and alcoholics have dreams and ambitions. I think for many, no matter their issues, the problem lies in turning those dreams into …